I never really believed in the trickle down theory of economics as espoused most famously by the later Ronny Raygun, but the global financial crisis has now trickled all the way down to the library where I work. The job that I took specifically because it was easy and low stress has become impossibly demanding and extremely high stress. I’ve gone from hoping to make this place a career to hoping to survive long enough to get out on a decent disability policy. The new and imho impossible work standards have wrecked havoc on both my panic/anxiety/agoraphobia disorders and on my 45 year old and very arthritic hips. My boss alternates between assuring me that she Knows I can do it if I would just get my stress under control. She tried to empathize by telling me that she too carries xanax with her every where. But she only needs to take them every six months to a year. My doctor allows 1–3 a day and a maximum of 100 in 90 days. And when I called in sick this morning, after not sleeping all night and being (still now) constantly on the verge of tears and unable to control my moods that ping pong back and forth between despair and rage.
I regret that due to all of this anxiety and stress I am temporarily suspending publication of Libdrone book reviews. To all of my friends and family, please pray for me. I really need it now. To my advertisers: most of my traffic from this site comes from search engines and the site will continue to be up. If you choose to leave your ad with me, I would consider it a kindness. However if you prefer to cancel, please just go ahead and open a support ticket and request cancellation. I will let CMF admins know that refunds are a-okay with me. I will resume publication as soon as I am able
It really is too bad you are considering cancelling this. I can understand the stress many libraries are going thrugh what you just described including my own.
thanks, BC. My shrink added a new supposedly strong mood stabilizer to my meds mix and I slept almost 24 hours and feel physically better. I still worry that I will end up having to go into the hospital. My shrink Agrees with my huzband that I am on the verge of a “nervous breakdwon”.
My shrink also wrote a note saying I must be excused from work for a full week and I will be using that time to apply for SSI/SSDI, meet with the Vocational Rehabilitation people for career/employment counseling, and crafting a set of physcial accomodations to request in light of my 3 doumented physical handicaps so that I can draw things out as an ADA case.
My boss’es boss totally understands and assures me everyone here is feeling the stress and that I am not the only one who is reaching their personal breaking points and limits.
Take care of yourself, Alan. That’s what’s most important!
Thanks yall. I appreciate your concern. If you want all the gory details they are slowly going up at http://outofit-personal.blogspot.com